About My Transformation

Just a few years ago, I was stuck in the daily grind, working full time at one of London's most prestigious 2 Michelin starred restaurants. But my life was a living nightmare.

I hated my life with a burning intensity that seared my soul. My emotions were constantly drained, and I was financially broke. My body bore the scars of ceaseless labor and the mental trauma was etched into the lines of my face. Desperation drove me to chain smoke a packet of cigarettes daily- a futile attempt to numb the emotional agony that gnawed at my very core. On my rare days off, I sought refuge in alcohol and drugs, using them as a numbing balm to distance myself from my own existence.

My personal life was a shambles. Romantic relationships were close to non existent, and the connections with my family were marred by pain, agony and unresolved grief. It was a life lived on the brink of collapse.

Each morning, as the delivery guy arrived with provisions, I couldn't help but envy his apparent freedom. He cruised around London, basking in daylight, while I remained trapped in my chef's uniform, saturated with the scent of grease and sweat, laboring behind a blistering stove until the early morning hours of the following day.

On my limited days off, if i wasn’t cooking at private events just to make ends meat, catching up on sleep or gambling at a casino i would find myself walking around the business district of London, where the tallest buildings were. I'd doggedly find a way to reach the highest point… to breathe in the polluted air of the city while starring down below… As i leaned over the edge of the buildings, thoughts would rush into my head.

"What if?" I grappled with an internal struggle, tempted to take that fatal leap, believing it would end all my troubles. I felt trapped, unable to see any escape from this grim reality.

As I came to accept my life situation, acknowledging that I had hit rock bottom, I realized that I had nothing left to lose. It couldn't get any worse than this. So I decided to take action and make a change. I understood that no one was coming to save me, so I took full responsibility for being stuck where I was.

Within a few months, I found myself working at the best restaurant in the world, located in Switzerland, in a much healthier environment.

I made a conscious decision to quit all substances: cigarettes, alcohol, drugs, coffee, and even confronted my deepest fear of rejection from women. I signed up for a gym, improved my sleep, and started dreaming big.